If you worry about being annoying A LOT, you’re probably not as annoying as you think you are.
I just notice that a lot of people I love, apologize for taking up space and being openly enthusiastic or thinking deeply about the things they like. Whether it’s cell energy pathways, or the story they’re writing.
And it’s no coincidence that a lot of these friends who worry that they’re annoying are also socialized female and, you know, taught to take up as little space as possible. To be as agreeable as possible.
But it’s ok to have a conversation about the things that are interesting to you every once in awhile. Your enthusiasm is a lot more infectious than it is annoying.
The Prisoners’ Dilemma (21088 words) by Avelera Chapters: 3/? Fandom: Pacific Rim (Movies) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Newton Geiszler/Hermann Gottlieb Characters: Newton Geiszler, Hermann Gottlieb, Precursors (Pacific Rim), Alice the Kaiju Brain (Pacific Rim) Additional Tags: Kidnapping, Imprisonment, Mind Control, Possession, Past Relationship(s), Precursor Emissary Newton Geiszler, Implied/Referenced Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Alternate Universe – Canon Divergence, Broken Engagement, Hacking, Engineering, Chains, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Dark, POV Hermann Gottlieb, BAMF Hermann Gottlieb, Worried Hermann Gottlieb, The Drift (Pacific Rim), Drift Side Effects, Ghost Drifting, Science, Explicit Language, Explicit Sexual Content, Blackmail, Hostage Situations, Pining, Mutual Pining, Love, Romance, Fluff, Domestic, Domestic Fluff, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Rescue Summary:
One year after Newt abandoned Hermann to work for Shao Industries, Hermann decides to confront his ex-fiancé. Not with any intention of trying to win Newton back, of course, but only to gain some kind of closure, some answers for why he vanished so suddenly and avoided even speaking to Hermann ever since.
Except when Hermann confronts Newt in his home, he learns that Newt is under the control of the Precursors, and that they have every intention of killing Hermann to keep their secret. Newt strikes a desperate bargain to save Hermann’s life, which the Precursors accept with the condition of Newt’s good behavior, and that Hermann can never be allowed free again.
Now a prisoner, it is up to Hermann to try to free them both, while keeping the secret of his plan to do so from the man who knows him best in the world.
– WHEW I CAN’T BELIEVE IT’S FINALLY DONE! Special thanks to Sansael for the beta assist, and all the wonderful encouragement! I hit a road block for this chapter made up of realizing JUST HOW COMPLEX the situation really was, and that took a while to work out and about three separate drafts. Later chapters shouldn’t take NEARLY as long to get out. I hope you enjoy!
It’s really devastating! There was a pretty big theme in TOWOID about defining Newt as a prisoner of war, but I meant it quite sincerely for the character in general, not just that fic. I mean, he was an asset to the other side, they couldn’t have pulled off their plan without him, and he was canonically dragged away from the life he wanted before they got him. It just doesn’t appear that way because the prison isn’t physical, it’s mental. When and if Newt speaks in Uprising, he’s speaking through the bars.
I’m not sure if Hermann would see the thought that he lost Newt to the war as melodramatic. It could very well be a simple statement of fact. Many people in the Shatterdome lost people in the Kaiju War, and he and Newt were always “different” from everyone else, perhaps it was just in keeping that the way the tragedies of the war would strike them were “different” too. He’s always wanted to be a soldier of some sort, to have a mission, so it might almost help frame it in a way that allows him to talk about it and get help, when before he struggled with the sense of isolation he felt from a simple abandonment he didn’t know how to cope with or define.
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